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By Synthia Esther

AbortionWhen we got up this morning Mommy seemed lethargic.  I was having a good time moving around, squirming and stretching my arms and legs.  Even though I was in the comfort of a warm, soft and safe bed,  I was up as usual before Mommy ever thought about moving around.  Today she seems especially slow.   I always like to hear my Mommy's voice and her funny, jolly giggle.  Other times she sings and  I think she has the most beautiful voice in the world.   I love my Mommy and I know she loves me.  She takes real good care of me too.   Mommy and I are really very close, in fact she takes me everywhere she goes.  Sometimes she gets very upset and I can sense she's nervous.   I don't like it when Mommy gets so upset.   Other times she gets depressed and lays around for days.   I try to wake her up with all my activity, but there are days when nothing I do seems to help.  Mommy is getting dressed and has just finished blow drying her hair.  I wonder where we are going today?

Maybe  Mommy will go see Granny.   Granny has the same funny giggle as Mommy.  I wonder why Mommy isn't playing the radio in the car like she usually does when we go on a trip together?   And I wonder why she is crying?   I don't like to hear  Mommy cry.   I like to hear her giggle, laugh and sing.   Almost everyday is a new adventure with my Mommy.   I can hear lots of new voices I've never heard  before.  I wonder where we are?   Everyone here seems to be nice and their voices sound gentle and kind.  You seem awfully still and quiet Mommy.

I kicked real hard because something tried to grab me.   I am trying not to bother you with all my kicking and squirming but something terrible is happening.   This thing keeps attacking me.... and I don't know how to stay safe!  I am trying to move away from the attacks, but I can't!   This thing just  keeps stabbing and jabbing at me.  I'm scared. Mommy, I'm really scared...... and for the first time I don't think you know I am here... MOMMY?   MOMMY?  ....SOMETHING IS HURTING ME!   Why aren't you talking?  Where are you Mommy?   Please, Mommy, please.... take care of me... keep me warm and safe like you usually do.   Talk to me Mommy...let me hear you... Mom...m... this thing  is so strong....I'm not giving up, I'm not ...up!   Ahhhhhhhhhh......... I can't stand the pain...Help me... Mommy,.............. Help!  MOMMY!,,,....myyyy....yyyyy................................................................


Nurse Lattimer places the work instruments which are covered in blood,  into a stainless steel mesh bottom tray to put them through the washer decontamination process.  She asks Dr. Culter,  "Do you want me to move her to the recovery room?"   Dr. Culter hurriedly takes off his latex gloves and throws them into the trash.  "No, she's the last one for the day.  You can leave her here till she wakes up." While rinsing out a white five gallon sized plastic bucket Nurse Lattimer whispers into Dr. Culter's ear? "What do you want me to do with the live fetus you preformed by  hystertomy abortion earlier today?" Dr. Culter walks into his adjacent office motioning for Nurse Lattimer to follow.  He speaks in a non-chalant manner as he answers her question,  "I placed the live fetus on the  warming table and have him on CPAP.   I am personally delivering him to  Dr. Mathews right after I meet with a new fetus marketing firm for a business collaboration.    That  23 - week old male fetus will bring us a big payoff!   He's very strong, in fact he is the size of most 24 week old fetuses.”

Smiling broadly Dr. Culter recounts, “We've had a good and prosperous day, totaling 43 abortions.  We have 66 scheduled for tomorrow.  Do you think you can handle doing some of those yourself?  I'll pay you an extra $50.00  for everyone you do."   Nurse Lattimer enthusiastically replies, "Yes,  Dr. Culter,  I can do as many as you will give me and I appreciate the offer.  Jared starts college in a few months and I could really use the money."   Dr. Culter replies, "Then its settled and I'm out of here.  It's been a very profitable day but I'm tired.   I know you have to be tired as well.   That reminds me, be sure to pack up the placentas and the fetuses on fresh ice and in separate coolers before you go home  tonight.  I will be meeting the “L.A.S” group who are picking them up early tomorrow morning before we open to the public."

Nurse Lattimer confirms Dr. Culter's orders as he leaves the building.  She then goes back to the procedure  room to check on Monica Hawkins after seeing her on  the clinic's  T.V. monitors beginning to wake.  She cheerfully inquires,  "Miss Hawkins... Miss Hawkins....are you awake?   Nurse Lattimer takes Monica Hawkins blood pressure as she continues to talk to her.   Monica eventually replies with slurred speech and a groggy voice, "Yeahh, I'mm it overr yett?"   Nurse Lattimer confirms in an up beat tone of voice, “Yes sweetie, its all over.”  Nurse Lattimer checks Monica's heart with her stethoscope as she requests, "Breath deeply, in and out for just breath regularly.   Your heart sounds good and your blood pressure is fine.  You did a great job Miss Hawkins, and you are free to go home as soon as you feel like your up to it.”

Monica is still feeling the effects of the pain killer she was given and in a slow speech pattern inquisitively inquires, "Was it... a... boy.... or... a ..girrrl?”   Nurse Lattimer is finishing necessary paper work which is attached to a clip board as she replies in a smug manner, "We couldn't tell, its just a blob of tissue.  They all look alike to me.”   Monica remains quiet as tears run down her checks.  Once again she inquires about her baby, " I want.... to.. seee... it."   With her foot Nurse Lattimer gently kicks a lid in place over a white plastic 5 gallon sized bucket that contains Monica Hawkins's baby girl's dead body, along with four other babies aborted before hers.   She pointedly replies as she searches her paperwork, "I'm sorry Miss Hawkins that's against our policy.   If you recall you signed our policy waver before we preformed your abortion.”  Nurse Lattimer shows Monica her signed admission waver.  She then flips the pages to the release form and in an appealing manner smiles as she responds, “Speaking of which, we need you to sign the release form on the dotted line.”   Monica feebly signs the paper work as Nurse Lattimer holds the clip board steady.  Once signed Nurse Lattimer relates, “Now, let's get you to the dressing room so I can help you get dressed."

While assisting Monica  to the dressing room Nurse Lattimer continues to console her, "You did the right thing Miss Hawkins.  The fetus you were carrying has been taken care of and you'll be able to finish your college education just like you planned.   My son Jared is starting college soon too.  It takes a lot of  time and dedication to keep your grades up.  You did what you had to do."   Nurse Lattimer zips up the back of Monica's floral dress and then helps her guide each foot into flat slip on, white and pink shoes that match.

With a closed mouth smile she hands her a packet of information, "These are your follow-up orders from Dr. Culter.   Be sure to call us if you have any problems or questions.  Your boyfriend David is in the waiting room and so is your best friend Tonya.   She told me to tell you she would drive your car to her house so you could spend the night with her."   Monica looks down at the off-white and marbleized tan tiled floor and in a monotoned voice confirms,   "My parents don't know."  

Nurse Lattimer continues to  assist Monica as she walks to the public waiting room and front office reception area.   She  strives to ease her conscience, "Don't feel badly about not telling your parents.   As you already know,  in our great state you don't have to have their consent.  You're a very lucky young lady to have such nice friends who care about you.  One day you'll look back on all of this and know you did the right thing."

Monica looks deeply into Nurse Lattimer's eyes and remorsefully replies, "The way I feel right now I can't imagine that could remotely be true.  I just conveniently killed my baby so I could finish college!"  Nurse Lattimer returns Monica's intense stare responding sincerely, "You aborted tissue that has a medical term 'fetus'.   It was not a baby."   She then opens the door to the public waiting room for Monica to walk through.   David and Tonya rush to console her as she burst into tears and they exit arm in arm from the building.

Nurse Lattimer locks the door behind them and turns off the front office reception lights.   She then goes to the storage room and packs the placentas on ice, followed by the dead bodies of  42  little babies.  Twenty- baby boys and twenty- two little baby girls.  She checks on the one baby boy who Dr. Colter gave the name “Baby  #51”.    He was born alive by a  hystertomy abortion and is on  CPAP, breathing and remaining strong.   Nurse Lattimer knows  “Baby  #51”  will bring her a big bonus check just like all the other  50  live babies who were delivered by hystertomy abortions and  sold on the black market for human experimentation.  With everything done she leaves the building to go to her nice big home in the suburbs.   She looks forward to relaxing with her family which also includes a friendly black Labrador Retriever who ironically is named  “Lucky”. 

AbortionAs for  Monica Hawkins?  She never did get over the death of her aborted baby.   She felt within her spirit the baby was a girl and fondly named her after her grandmother, Emily Suzanne.  Monica experienced  persistent dreams and nightmares that continue to resurface especially on the anniversary date of her abortion procedure.  She  felt her personal convictions as a Christian held her to a code of conduct she didn't measure up to.   Not only did she feel the separation of her baby from her womb, she felt a psychological and spiritual separation from God. 

Due to painful memories and remorse, Monica severed her relationship with David, her former boyfriend and Emily's father.   It also took her three years instead of two,  to finish college and obtain her degree.   Eventually Monica married and gave birth to two sons.  Twenty two years after Emily's death by abortion, Monica still regrets her decision.  She takes comfort in God's loving mercy and grace to forgive her, and is a positive voice for pro-life issues which  include educational outreach, political activism and legislative appeals.  She is at peace confirming in a positive spirit as tears well up in her blue eyes, “Emily is with God  in Heaven and one day I know I will see her again!”

The experiences Monica encountered after she aborted Emily are often typical of mothers who develop "Post Abortion Syndrome" (PAS), which is a form of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome.  Due to the psychosocial stress and psychological problems attributed to the abortion process many mothers who have opted for the procedure have profoundly regretted their decisions.  However, there are also many mothers who haven't been traumatized in the least, submitting to repeat abortions as a form of birth control.   Like  Dr. Culter  and  Nurse Lattimer, they continue in their savage crimes of murder without any regret at all.

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By Synthia Esther

God, the creator and giver of human life ordained every child formed in their mother's womb (Psalm 139:13-16).  He knows  the number of hairs on each of His children's head (Luke 12:7), and His eyes saw our unformed body (Psalm 139:16).  Isaiah tells us, "Before I was born the Lord called me; from my birth He has made mention of my name" (Isaiah 49:1).  At conception the unborn baby has all of its own DNA and at three weeks of age the baby's heart is beating.  An unborn child at 4  weeks of life has a developing brain, spinal cord and nervous system.  blood flows though out their tiny veins.  By week 6  their skeleton is formed and every organ is present.  Lips are sensitive to touch and ears can resemble a family pattern.   At 10  weeks of age the baby has: fingernails and fingerprints that have begun to form, eyelids, palms, and hands that are sensitive to touch.  They can bend fingers around an object placed in their palm and thumb sucking may occur.  They can squint, swallow, frown, urinate, kick, turn feet, curl and fan toes. They can make a fist, move thumbs, bend wrist, turn their heads, open their mouth and press their lips tightly together.  They practice breathing and they feel pain.


As of March 2007, the Legislation supported by Republican Gov. Mark Sanford, passed 91 - 23, after law makers defeated amendments excepting rape or incest.  The House must approve the bill again in a routine vote before it goes to the Senate where its sponsor expects it to pass.  Some states make ultra sound available before an abortion, but South Carolina would be alone in requiring women to view the pictures before going through with the abortion procedure.  Many women who have had an abortion and regretted their decision have said it would have made a difference to have viewed their baby alive and doing well in the womb, before going through with their abortion.  If a picture says a thousand words,  the  babies ultra sound reality picture of life speaks volumes. 

Ultrasound bills are in the news.  Most of them require clinics to offer each women an ultra sound picture image of their baby.  Mississippi enacted a law on March 22, 2007.  Idaho followed April 3rd , and Georgia's legislature passed a bill in April as well.   While these state have made ultra sound images available to women before an abortion, South Carolina would be the only state requiring women to view the pictures. 

Rep. Alan Clemmons, choking back tears as he talked about his two adopted children, recalled a prayer given by his 11-year old daughter.  “She thanked her God, her father in heaven for her birth mother for loving her enough to give her life,” said Clemmons, a Republican.  “I thank God for those young mothers who chose to give them life.”    Pro-life proponents hope women will change their minds after seeing an ultrasound ( Wires, Thursday, March 22, 2007).


AbortionThe unborn baby  also experiences the taste and flavor of food.  Julie A. Mennella, Pediatrics for Parents, Feb. 2005, "Exploring the beginnings of food and flavor learning" reports that emerging scientific research has revealed that the systems needed to detect flavors - taste and olfactory systems - are well developed before birth.  The environment in which the fetus lives, the amniotic sac, changes as a function of the food choices of the mother since flavors of her diet are transmitted and favor amniotic fluid.  By the last trimester of pregnancy, the fetus swallows significant amounts of amniotic fluid, inhaling more than twice the volume it swallows.  The taste buds and olfactory receptors are bathed in amniotic fluid and during the past decade, science has revealed that these flavor experiences lead to increased enjoyment and preference for these favors at weaning age and beyond.


An unborn baby  can also hear.  From the book, How Babies Talk - The Magic and Mystery of Language in the First Three Years of Life, Roberta Michnick Golinkoff, P.h.D., Kathy Hirsh-Pasek, P.h.D., we read in chapter one, "Watch Your Language!  The Fetus Can Hear You; Development from before birth to three months of age the Fetus".  The authors  write that researchers have come to the unmistakable conclusion that fetuses can hear their mothers.

The technique used to discover this is called "heart rate deceleration" and the masterminds behind the project are Professors William Fifer and Chris Moon from Columbia Presbyterian Medical Center in New York.   Another interesting and revealing finding pertaining to the hearing capabilities of the fetus was reported in The Science Daily, "University of Florida Research Adds to Evidence that Unborn Children Hear Melody of Speech", January 23, 2004, University of Florida, Gainesville, Fla.. Experiments on a pregnant ewe designed to record exactly what sounds reach the fetal ear, suggests that human fetuses likely hear mostly low-frequency rather than high-frequency sounds. 

This means they hear vowels rather than consonants and are more sensitive to the melodic parts of speech than to pitch, said Ken Gerhardt, a UF Professor of Communication Sciences and Disorders and an associate Dean of the graduate school.   With the use of an embryo scope (a tiny camera the size of a pen tip), inserted through an incision in the abdomen and gently placed on the amniotic membrane, doctors are taking clear pictures of a baby's life within the womb.  Such knowledge is too wonderful, too lofty for any of us to fully comprehend (Psalm 139:6).


The old testament records in Exodus 20:13  "You shall not kill."

Deuteronomy 30:19  This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses.  Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.

James 4:17  Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins.

Ephesians 5:11  Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.

Proverbs 24:11-12  Rescue those being led away to death; hold back those staggering toward slaughter.   (12)  If you say,”But We knew nothing about this,” does not He who weighs the heart perceive it?  Does not He who guards your life know it?  Will He not repay each person according to what he has done?

Proverbs 31:8  “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute.”

Exodus 21:22-23  If men who are fighting hit a pregnant women and she gives birth with no serious injury, the offender must be fined whatever the women's husband demands and the court allows. (23) But if there is a serious injury, you are to take life for life.  This biblical scripture clearly shows the unborn baby was considered a human life.

Jeremiah 32:34-35  They set up their abominable idols in the house that bears My Name and defiled it.  (35)  They built high places for Baal in the Valley of Ben Hinnom to sacrifice their sons and daughters to Molech, though I never commanded, nor did it enter my mind, that they should do such a detestable thing and so make Judah sin.



Abortion“If you receive a little child, you receive Me.  So every abortion is the denial of receiving Jesus, the neglect of receiving Jesus.  Abortion is really a war against the child, and I hate the killing of the innocent child, murder by the mother herself.  And if we accept that the mother can kill even her own child, we persuade a woman not to have an abortion?  As always, we must persuade her with love... The father of that child, however, must also give until it hurts. 

By abortion, the mother does not have to take any responsibility at all for the child he has brought into that world.  So that father is likely to put other women into the same trouble.  So abortion just leads to more abortion.   Any county that accepts abortion is not teaching its people to love one another but to use any violence to get what they want.  This is why the greatest destroyer of love and peace is abortion.” 

Source:  Peggy Noonan, Crisis Magazine: February 1, 1998, “Still, Small Voice”,

Peggy Noonan's  article  “Still, Small Voice”,  in its entirety is thought provoking, pointed, and spiritually insightful.  “A  treasure of  truth within the words Noonan  writes” -  Synthia Esther.


Daily in abortion clinics and private practices unborn babies are dying horrific deaths of mutilation and torture performed by abortionist who place the love of money above the sanctity of human life. With the child's life in their mothers hands, she has the power to continue to nurture and care for her baby or have it sucked out and thrown in a pan.


AbortionThe late George Tiller, an American abortionist gained notoriety by killing innocent babies.  A   2004  video entitled “A Voice for Choice”,  by Alligator Cowgirl Productions, provides a show and tell experience for the viewer concerning Tiller's  pro-choice stance as an abortionist.  Tiller developed a late-term abortion procedure he calls “Mold”.   Mold is the abbreviation of the components used in his abortion method of choice.  They consists of Misoprostol, Oxytocin, Laminaria and Digoxin.  Calling the aborted death of a baby, “fetal demise”,  Tiller continues to thrive and profit from his pro-choice crimes of horror.  After signing a mandatory consent form, women who have aborted their baby are given the option to cuddle the dead infant while posing for a photograph.

RU - 486

This abortion method can be used into the 2nd month of pregnancy.  By blocking the natural hormone progesterone, (which is crucial during pregnancy), the uterine lining cannot provide food, fluid or oxygen to the developing baby.  The lining disintegrates and a second drug is given which causes the uterus to contract and expel the baby.  This abortion process can last up to a week. Side effects include nausea, severe cramping, vomiting and bleeding.  Holly Paterson, 18, a California woman, died shortly after taking the drug  RU - 486, she received from a local Planned Parenthood.


In the first twelve weeks of life the suction aspiration or vacuum abortion is the most common method used in the torturous abortion procedure.  Surgical techniques are sometimes referred to as STOP - Suction or Surgical Termination Of Pregnancy.  Abortionists may use Manual Vacuum Aspiration ( MVA), also refereed to as suction curettage abortion in which the fetus is suctioned out piece by piece using a manual syringe or use the electric vacuum aspiration ( EVA) abortion method, which uses an electric pump to suction the child's body out piece by piece.  A cannula which is a long plastic tube connected to a suction device is inserted into the uterus to suction out the fetus-baby and placenta.  The suction tears the baby into pieces with the vacuum hose often jerking as pieces of the baby's body become lodged in the process.  Side effects include cramping, nausea, sweating and feeling faint.  Less frequent side effects include infection, possible heavy or prolonged bleeding, blood clots, damage to cervix and perforation of the uterus.


Also used in the first trimester of pregnancy is chemical abortion.  This non-surgical poison abortion uses methotrexate or mifepristone, followed by prostaglandin (either misoprostol or gemeprost).   Miscoprostol is used in the U.S. with gemeprost usually used in the UK and Sweden (Wikipedia).   The injected methotrexate begins to attack cells surrounding the baby resulting in the baby dying due to lack of oxygen and food.   Several days later Miscoprostol is injected to trigger the expulsion of the baby's dead body.  This procedure can cause heavy bleeding and in some cases, expulsion does not occur and surgery is required.  Methotrexate is toxic with possible side effects of an increased chance of cancer, anemia and lung disease.


Salt poisoning ( Candy Apple Baby), is another chemical process used in abortions.  Usually done in the 2nd and third trimester, the injected poison is breathed and swallowed by the baby, who struggles and sometimes convulses.  Many researchers claim salt poisoning takes over an hour to kill the baby.  The salt solution often burns and strips away the outer layer of the baby's skin, burning the baby inside and out.  This exposes the raw red glaze, looking subcutaneous layer of tissues with the baby's head sometimes looking like a "Candy Apple".

Complications from this procedure may include severe hemorrhage, cervical injuries, or side effects to the nervous system such as seizures or coma.   Gianna Jessen survived a salt poisoning abortion.  She was adopted, and now as an adult Christian thanks God (and her loving family), for her life.   She has over come health complication's from Cerebral Palsy due to lack of oxygen in the womb but her tenacious and positive spirit has enabled her to enjoy such hobbies as rock climbing and running marathons.   Now living in Nashville, Tennessee, she enjoys writing music and singing songs.   Gianna has met President Bush and spoke before congress as a pro-life voice against abortion.


AbortionFrom the thirteenth - fifteenth week until approximately the twenty-sixth week, a dilation and evacuation (D & E), is usually used in the abortion process.  This procedure consists of opening the cervix of the uterus and emptying it piece by piece using surgical instruments and suction.  The unborn baby is dismembered with plier like forceps.  The instrument is used to seize a leg or another part of the baby's body, and in a twisting motion tear it from the body.  The baby's spine is snapped and the skull may have to be crushed for removal.

When the third trimester is reached premature delivery is often induced with prostaglandin, coupled with injecting the amniotic fluid with caustic solutions containing saline or urea.  This abortion process prematurely induces labor.  Oftentimes the baby is delivered alive and left alone to die, or in many reported cases is killed by the abortionist.   Permanent placental, cervical and cardiovascular side effects are common.


Very late abortions can be induced by intact dilation and extraction (Intact D & X), also called Intrauterine Cranial Decompression.  This requires surgical decompression of the fetus's head before evacuation, and is sometimes termed "Partial Birth Abortion".  The baby is extracted breach with their legs hanging outside of their mothers body.  The baby is face down, and scissors are plunged into the baby's head at the nape of the neck and spread open to enlarge the wound.  The baby's brain is then suctioned out and their skull collapses and the baby is delivered.


Hysterotomy abortion, similar to a cesarean section but resulting in a terminated fetus, is also used to abort the baby in late stages of pregnancy.  Many of these babies are born alive, yet left to die alone.  Some abortionists have been known to plunge them into a bucket of water or smother them with the placenta.  Still others cut the cord while the baby is alive inside the uterus depriving the baby of oxygen. From the 20th to the 23rd week of gestation an injection to stop the fetal heart is often used as the first phase of this surgical abortion.   Strangulation and suffocation are common deaths for many babies born alive and murdered by abortionists.  While other live baby's become the victims of insidious horrors in "human experimentation."


The complications that have occurred with induced abortions number well over one hundred.  Minor complications can include: minor infections, bleeding, fevers, chronic abdominal pain, gastro-intestinal disturbances, vomiting, and Rh sensitization.  Some common major complications are infection, excessive bleeding, embolism, ripping or perforation of the uterus, anesthesia complications, convulsions, hemorrhage, cervical injury, endotoxic shock, and in 3 to 5 percent of abortion cases sterility has occurred  (Reardon, Aborted Women-Silent No More, Chicago: Loyola University Press, 1987 and - Wynn and Wynn, “Some Consequences of Induced Abortion to Children Born Subsequently,”  British Medical Journal, March 3, 1973, and Foundation for Education and Research in Child Bearing, London, 1972).  

Ectopic pregnancies in women who acquire post-abortal infections and cervical damage are also two side effects of abortion procedures according to researchers (Chung, Effects of Induced Abortion on Subsequent Reproductive Function and Pregnancy Outcome, University of Hawaii, Honolulu, 1981;  Levin,,”Ectopic Pregnancy and Prior Induced Abortion”, American Journal of Public Health, 1982, vol.72, p253).   Cervical damage from previously induced abortions increase the risks of miscarriage, premature birth, and complications of labor during later pregnancies by 300 to 500 percent (Harlap and Davies, “Late Sequelae of Induced Abortion: Complications and Outcome of Pregnancy and Labor:, American Journal of Epidemiology, 1975, vol.102. no.3; Hogue, “Impact of Abortion on Subsequent Fecundity:, Clinics in Obstetrics and Gynecology, March 1986, vol.13, no.1; Lembrych, “Fertility Problems Following Aborted First Pregnancy”, eds. Hilgers,, New Perspectives on Human Abortion, Frederick, Md.: University Publications of America, 1981; Wynn and Wynn, “Some Consequences of Induced Abortion to Children Born Subsequently.” British Medical Journal, March 3, 1973, and Foundation for Education and Research in Child Bearing, London1972.


According to medical experts the longer a woman waits to have her first full pregnancy, the greater her breast cancer link is.  Delaying birth of a first child significantly increases risk due to the childless woman having immature cancer vulnerable breast tissue, Type 1 and 2  lobules, where 95% of  all breast cancers are known to develop.  Experts debate whether an abortion further increases risk by leaving the woman with more cancer vulnerable breast tissue that she had before she became pregnant.  This effect is termed the “independent link.”

Epidemiological studies have established a correlation between abortion and increased breast cancer risk.   The established risk showing that a premature birth before 32  weeks gestation more than doubles breast cancer risk.   The hormonal changes to the breasts are the same whether the woman has an abortion or a premature birth before  32  weeks gestation, (Melbye et al. Br J Cancer 1999; Hsieh et al. Lancet 1999; Vatten et al. Br J Cancer 2002; Innes and Byers Int J Cancer 2004).   According to a statistical analysis published by Community Health – the cancer abortion link is increased by 1/3 (CNN – Health Story Page, October 11, 1996).


AbortionThe emotional trauma for women who have undergone post abortion counseling have included, but  not limited to: depression, loss of self-esteem, self-destructive behavior, sleep disorders, memory loss, sexual dysfunction, chronic problems with relationships, dramatic personality changes, anxiety attacks, guilt and remorse, difficulty grieving, increased tendency toward violence, chronic crying, difficulty concentrating, flashbacks, loss of interest in previously enjoyed activities and people and difficulty bonding with birth children born later  (Reardon, Aborted Women-Silent No More, Chicago: Loyola University Press, 1987; Reardon, “Criteria for the Identification of High Risk Abortion Patients; Analysis of An In-Depth Survey of 100 Aborted Women”, Presented at the 1987 Paper Session of the Association for Interdisciplinary Research, Denver). 

In one study of 500 aborted women, researchers found that 50 percent expressed negative feelings, and up to 10 percent were classified as having developed serious psychiatric complications (Friedman,,”The Decision-Making Process and the Outcome of Therapeutic Abortion,” American Journal of Psychiatry, December 12, 1974, vol.131, pp 1332-1337).   Denial and repression of feelings is often experienced lasting on average for 5 to 10 years, as is a desire to get pregnant to replace their lost aborted  pregnancy.

Within 8 weeks after their abortions, 55 %  expressed guilt, 44 %  complained of nervous disorders, 36 %  had experienced sleep disturbances, 31 %  had regrets about their decision, and 11 % had been prescribed psychotropic medicine by their family doctor (Ashton, “The Psychosocial Outcome of Induced Abortion,” British Journal of Ob & Gyn. 1980, vol.87, pp 1151-1122).   Research studies also found the increase of self-destructive behavior among aborted women.   Approximately 14 % described themselves as having become addicted, or alcoholic after their abortions.  In addition, 60 % reported suicidal ideation with 28 % actually attempting suicide, of which half attempted suicide two or more times (Reardon, “Criteria for the Identification of High Risk Abortion Patients: Analysis of An In-Depth Survey of 100 Aborted Women,” Presented at the 1987 Paper Session of the Association for Interdisciplinary Research, Denver). 

A 5 year retrospective study in two Canadian provinces found that 25 %  of aborted women made visits to psychiatrists as compared to only 3 % of the control group (Badgley,,Report of the Committee on the Operation of the Abortion Law, Ottawa: Supply and Services, 1977, pp. 313-321).   Many aborted women also experience a form of Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, known as Post Abortion Syndrome (PAS), due to regret and the severe trauma of the abortion experience.


Aborted baby's whether they are dead or alive have become a global money making business. Collagen and amniotic fluid can come from fetal material, since the Food and Drug Administration does not require pre-testing or identification of cosmetic ingredients.  Unless your beauty products specifies animal collagen or bovine collagen, the product probably contains human collagen. Vivisection work is done on thousands of aborted babies.  These babies are sold to research centers, which pick them up at regular intervals for transport.

The fetal harvesting industry and fetal harvesting firms are a thriving and profitable industry.  Who are the clients?  Public universities, pharmaceutical firms and private research laboratories in the U.S. and the world.  Researchers ordering harvested fetal remains usually make their requests with the following specifications; normal donor, healthy, no genetic disorder, and healthy mother.  Whole eyes, intact leg, entire hip joint, 22-24 weeks gestation.  There have been documented former fetal harvest lab tech report  that harvested organs from 30-40 late term fetal subjects were received per week.  Fetal harvesting firms market fetal eyes, liver, spleens, pancreases, brains, thymuses, bone marrow, cardiac blood,  venous blood from limbs, extremities, spines, spinal cords and kidneys.  An aborted baby cadaver can be marketed to multiple clients for multiple orders.

In the U.S. buying and selling of fetal remains is prohibited by federal law.   It is also illegal in the United States to do experimentation with babies aborted alive, but there are other countries where such actives are legal.  No matter what country you live in there is a black-market for aborted babies and the fresher they are the better  And money does play a part between the hands of abortion providers, fetal harvesting firms and recipients of fetal remains.  Accounts of aborted fetus subjects delivered and still alive by abortion doctors to fetal harvesting lab technicians has been reported by eye witness testimony at US Congressional hearings.  The marketing of aborted fetal dopamine-producing brain tissue for treatment of Parkinson's disease patients is one sub-market in this inhumane demand.   In the name of science the following has occurred:


In the womb these innocent babies are dependent upon their mother for security, nourishment, and loving care.  The reason aborted babies end up in the fetal harvesting industry is simple; their mother's didn't want them!  It is time to stop the savage blood shed and face the facts: In each and every abortion procedure  an innocent baby is made to die an agonizing, torturous death.  One of the most common questions asked of mother's who are contemplating having an abortion is if their baby is a piece of tissue, fetus, embryo or is the life inside them a human baby.

Rather than face the truth the mother prefers to be comforted and counseled by the answer of a paid counselor in an abortion clinic. These are people who make their living off of every abortion they sell!  Such calculated murder is done by people who have  self-centered  harden hearts of stone. They play on a mother's venerability.  However, sad to say there are many mother's who view maternity as a disability and abort their babies time after time.  In the United States for every babies death by abortion there are many people waiting and praying for a baby to adopt.   Everyday it is estimated that 126,000 abortions are preformed worldwide (Guttmacher Institute).  Does the government legislate your morals?



Texas, in 1999,  became the first state to enact, a "Safe Haven" law which permits a person to abandon a newborn baby at a specified location.  This may be a hospital, a firehouse, or police station. Additional states have followed suit, with 47 states adopting the same laws at the end of the year 2006.  You can save your baby's life while remaining anonymous.    January 17, 2002,  President Bush signed the "Promoting Safe and Stable Families Amendments of 2001” (H.R. 2873).  The law permits individual states to direct funding from the Promoting Safe and State Families program to support infant safe haven programs, launch publicity campaigns, provide related training and technical assistance.

NATIONAL HOT LINES - Anyone in the U.S. who wants to get in touch with a safe haven can call 1-877-796-HOPE (1-877-796-4673).  This is a toll free call that can be accessed anywhere in the U.S.  No record of the call will appear on your telephone bill.

SAVE ABANDONED BABIES FOUNDATION -  1-877-440-2229,  24 hours a day, 7 days a week.   Frequently asked questions at;

SAFE PLACE FOR NEWBORNS - Toll Free Crisis Line: 1-877-440-2229.   They have a website with a link to choose your state for more information: http://www/  Address: 120 S. 6th Street, Suite 1150, Minneapolis, MN 55402 – (612)-317-2895


Luke 1: 13-15....Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to give him the name John. (14) He will be a joy and delight to you, and many will rejoice because of his birth, (15)  for he will be great in the sight of the Lord.  He is never to take wine or other fermented drink, and he will be filled with the Holy Spirit even from birth.  The King James Bible in verse 15 states, “and he shall be filled with the Holy Ghost, even from his mother's womb,” which is as noted, before birth.

Luke 1:31  You will be with child and give birth to a son and you are to give him the name Jesus.

Luke 1:41   When Elizabeth heard Mary's greeting, the baby leaped in her womb, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit.

Luke 1:44   As soon as the sound of your greeting reached my ears, the baby in my womb leaped for joy.

Psalm 127:3   Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from Him.





A Journey from Death to Life by the Abortion Doctor who Changed His Mind, Bernard Nathanson, M.D.  "A passionate account of the author's transition from pioneer of abortion rights to champion of the Pro - Life cause.  This concrete and powerful contribution will be required reading for all involved in the abortion debate." - Kirkus Review. 


Ultra Sound Video Of An Actual Abortion

Dr. Nathanson is also who narrates the video, "The Silent Scream." A real time fetal ultrasound video of a live 12-week baby (fetus), undergoing a suction abortion. The video shows the baby moving in the womb even sucking her thumb at times. Once the suction catheter makes contact with the pre-born baby she can be seen dodging the suction instrument violently attempting to escape, while her heartbeat doubles in rate. When caught, she is dismembered and her mouth is clearly open wide, hence the title, "The Silent Scream.",

The Jericho Plan: Breaking Down the Walls Which Prevent Post - Abortion Healing, David C. Reardon,

The Concentration Can, Jerome Le Jeune, M.D., Ignatius Press

Beyond Abortion: A Chronicle of Fetal Experimentation, Suzanne Rini, Request item # EG2 from American Life League

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